I've heard, I don't know how many times, "If you have 3 kids, you might as well have 16. It doesn't get any harder after 3." What a complete lie!
I want everyone to know...it does get harder after 3. Right after 3 comes 4, and it's pretty difficult. They outnumber you 2 to 1. There's more crying, more laundry, more boots and snow pants lying on the floor, more little bodies snuggle and more soft cheeks to kiss.
Chris and I were not expecting an easy transition. No one in our family has a laid back, taking-it-easy sort of personality. We are all intense, on the go, opinionated, strong willed people. We knew adding one more to the mix would make things--interesting! But it is chaotic every waking moment. Chris wants to commission a painting to go over the threshold of our home that says "God Bless our Chaos". Often around 4:30, for no reason (other than the two babies crying, Claire and Lily fighting, and the depths of my fatigue) I start crying. It is either cry or leave the house, slamming the door behind me. Crying is obviously the better option.
I know that this transition will go quickly, and much like labor, these growing pains will fade with time. For now, however, I feel so inadequate for the task before me and everyday is a struggle.